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Evelyn and I together with Monique and Jurgen brining in the New Year ay Hogan's Inn |
Funny how we govern so much of our lives by two symbolic dates, our birthday and the 1st of January, milestones they seem, suggestive of endings and beginnings, and in our mind we adhere to there power quite willingly even though truthfully they are just empty landmarks, just another day of the year !!!
I have never been one to make resolutions on New Years, never saw a point to it but this year for a change I have made some, and I find it a bit hard to actually define what they are but here we go :
The easy one , and the one I have actually started is that I want to get back into biking, it’s just good for me , keeps my mind clear and body fit , so the ride on New Years Day was the first step, spin classes that I have started are a second step to prepare for spring riding, and the 3rd step is to find a tour to do this year, nothing like last year !! just a week long outing somewhere , the planing, preparation and training will definitely do me good !!! and give me some purpose , something quite lacking at the moment.
The next resolution is more convoluted and kind of hard to put to words. It seems that over the years I have warped myself up in layers of camouflage to the extent that at times I am not really sure who I am.
So my next resolution is to start to unwrap myself and see who I find .
Together with that I want to return to living the simple life of enjoying life !!!, I got a taste of it last year and liked it, unfortunately the last two and a half months of the year were tough on me and I got lost, summers end, short days and working alone didn't help, my mind drifted my body fell apart and I found myself in a state of depression seeing just the negative in life instead of the positive.
So little by little I’m going to get back to taking the time to smell the flowers, I am going to have to try and set my priorities right, find some purpose in being, set some goals, all of this without unbalancing the simple easy approach to living I am trying to embrace. Life is to short to waste it !!!, I was reminded of it’s frailty this last New Years by someone very dear to me who in a heartbeat was fighting the battle of her life and luckily won, there really is no rhyme or reason for the beginning and ending of our life's, both usually quite beyond our control, all the more reason for living to it’s outmost the best you can !!!.
Stepping out of this state of limbo I find myself in will take time but it’s a great New Years Resolution I think !!!!
And in keeping with the intent of revitalizing myself and getting out of my self imposed winter hibernation , cross country skis have been bought !!! and used !!!
Last Saturday Evelyn and I headed up to Barrie to the new MEC store and made the purchase. Late in the day we arrived home with shiny new Salomon skis , Rossignol boots and a bag full of waxes, scrapes, etc ...On the kitchen table I, very non-professionally proceeded to apply a coat of grip wax to the bottom of the skis, an interesting operation !!!, then we dawned ski pants and stuffed our feet into the new boots heading out to preform what seemed like a clumsy mating dance with our skis attempting to attach ourselves to them , finally with boots firmly planted in bindings we headed out to the race track as the sun started to set and had a wonderful three lap inaugural outing , Evelyn managing to stay on her feet for it all , me taking a small spill and surviving uninjured !!! Definitely going to have to meet up with Bob for some instruction on technique !!! and maintenance.